Anger Management

Hi, I'm gonna tell ya something. Something quite ridiculous, or if I can say...it's pretty fun :D

It all began a few days ago. I have been in the worst condition recently. My body, my brain, and my emotion have been in the peak of the heat. I was in my cycle, and it made me get a terrible headache, serious illness in my stomach, and high fever. Can you imagine that? All became one and I called it PERFECT! Totally perfect! I'm not gonna tell you how I felt, no...it's not about that. It's about the effects of the diseases.

Just for your information, it's normal for women who are in their cycle to do something silly. We women sometimes can get angry easily, moody, and also hypersensitive. You know, the hormonal changes are doing their work. Arrggh...


Okay, back to our main topic. So...there they were. There we were. My students and I were in a classroom, doing teaching and learning activities as usual. My head was getting hurt, the pain was getting worse, i was trembling, dizzy, and so...damn tired. And suddenly they did THAT. Yes!! they really did that. Chatting, laughing, and playing something on their desks, and paying no attention to me. At all!!! I let them for a while but they kept on making me annoyed. And I really didn't know why I did that. I just knew that I had to do that. I walked closer towards their desks, and quickly took their books, and threw them all away. On the floor. Yup, on the floor. How could they did that in my class!!! I have warned them not to do something not related to their study. And again i took some book and threw them in front of their faces. And they just kept silent. As silent as the silent hill.

I tried to manage my breath. I was breathless. I told them to listen to me or get the hell out. And they still kept silent. Really I never did the same thing to the other classes. I also told them about that. This class is so different. The students, I mean. How they behave, how they speak, how they study. The results of their study are also different. Many of them have low ability in English. And unfortunately it is exaggerated by their low motivation to study. I was always friendly and patient to them at the first times. But the results were not as what i had expected. Annoying. Disappointing. It seems that what I teach them is just like wind. Today they get it, tomorrow they leave it.

Now I wanna ask you all. This is for you who are not "living" in that disastrous class. Have you ever seen me throwing books, hitting, or slapping students?? Never I do that. If you see me do one of them, you can conclude that what I face is not the normal ones. I'm a friendly teacher. I mean it. But what you have to remember is that I am also a human being who needs to be respected. Hopefully you understand it very well.