Ditinggal kekasih emang gak enak banget rasanya. Walaupun itu cuma setahun. tapi masalahnya, di tempat barunya bakalan gak ada listrik, gak ada sinyal pula. So what can I say, then?? Emang sih "cuma" setahun. Bisa gak ya saya hidup tanpa komunikasi sama orang tersayang selama setahun?? ngebayanginnya aja udah bikin nggak banget!. Jadi mikir, kenapa di Indonesia masih ada daerah tertinggal ya?? Ngapain aja pemerintah selama ini??
Tadi sumpah bener-bener hari yang nggak enak banget. Moody banget rasanya. Murid-murid di kelas pada rame sendiri. Dijelasin ngomong sendiri. Pas udah dikumpulin, banyak yang nanya. Asli garai emosi tingkat tinggi. Mana batuk gak sembuh-sembuh. Suara seraknya minta ampun. Dibawa ngomong dikit aja tenggorokan rasanya sakit bannget. Plus demam dan sakit kepala yang kumat lagi. Klop dan lengkap banget penderitaan saya hari ini. Eh..malah ditambah dimarahin hunny. Gara-garanya, dia tak komplem kenapa ga sms padahal lagi ada break time, wong Dini aja sempat sms kok. MAlah diceramahin, katanya" Apa harus sms tiap detik? bikin orang yg pengen sms jadi ga mood sms". GUBRAK!!! tapi perasaan marah tiba-tiba hilang karena sms keduanya. KAtanya", #narik napas panjang.Bingung harus blg gimana sm org yg disayang supaya lebih sabar dan pengertian". Sumpah bikin melted banget. Entah kenapa kamu selalu bisa menundukkan seorang Nine yang keras kepala, moody, dan manja kayak gini. You really conquer my heart, Hun...
But I have my own reason for doing this. I'm still not used to living without you. It does take time. I don't know how long it will be. But I promise you I will try to be more patient. I'll live my life as usual. I'll be happy. I'll be tough. I'll keep my heart only for you. The only problem is only the new habit that i have to get used to. As the time goes on, I'm sure that I can survive without you by my side. I'm a hundred percent sure. And when the time comes, you will see the new me. Someone who you haven't met for a year. Someone who you really want to see, hug, kiss, and marry.... :)
Don't worry, Dear. Though you're not here, and I'm not there, my heart will always be there, with yours. I'll wait for you here. I know we can make it through. And everything will be beautiful in the end. for you, for me, for us. Love you as always. ♥♥♥
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